| hidden home |
[Friday
December 11th, 2020 at 1:31am] |
 because of very strange occurrences,
i'm locking up most of my entries.
you'll probably only see videos or maybe even pictures publicly.
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| old pals |
[Tuesday
December 8th, 2009 at 11:42pm] |
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oh hello, breath. it's been a long time since i've seen you.
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| from the best of wikipedia |
[Monday
November 2nd, 2009 at 2:12am] |
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Mamihlapinatapai is a word from the Yaghan language of Tierra del Fuego, listed in The Guinness Book of World Records as the “most succinct word”, and is considered one of the hardest words to translate. It describes “a look shared by two people with each wishing that the other will initiate something that both desire but which neither one wants to start.”
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| where have all the ljers gone? |
[Thursday
October 1st, 2009 at 11:20am] |
i've been a blogger for a really long time. 7 years and 1,081 entries long time. and for a really long time i didn't want to accept the term-- blogger. blog. blahg. blahrg. blah. i am an ljer, i thought, a journaler. something like that. whatever.
in recent months -- years even -- i find less to write about, or maybe even have less of a desire to write. there are so many entries i've started that have been saved under private, so many i've deleted, so many i've found too insignificant to post, so many unfinished and left with a sigh. life doesn't stop. it never has. i mean, i'm still alive, aren't i? sort of?
blogging stopped. and these days more of my friends, or even "friends," have fallen through the cracks of livejournal into more straightforward methods of updating (ie. facebook. twitter.). but none of those i've ie'd are as intimate as what we have (or had) here. i used to know you strangers. i've divulged my most undisclosed thoughts and emotions right here (and on a "secret" journal that bears the name of my regular online moniker...hah, secret). some of us have progressed to real-life friends-- even real-life loves. but journals have been left abandoned, and every entry has become a vague one-liner that gives you a hint of what lj-user ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) so_and_so feels today, but not much more than that.
i credit lj for my ability to write-- which has now dwindled like everything else i used to love. but i used to be good at writing at one point. really. even had a knack for metrical composition. verse. poetry, even. go ahead, go back a few years, you'll see.
most of my thoughts are jumbled in my brain, and i used to write to straighten things out a little. these days i just let them be, which makes more of a mess of me mentally and emotionally than anything else. maybe i just don't want all of you to hear me complain anymore. i know you're tired of it. c'mon, don't lie.
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| beauty is in the bosom |
[Wednesday
September 2nd, 2009 at 9:55am] |
breasts
boobs
knockers
bazoombas
dirty pillows
i've come to terms with my less-than-blessed chest, and i'm okay with the fact that i have grapes instead of melons, teacups instead of jugs, smart cars instead of winnebagos, pinches instead of handfuls...i can keep going.
because of my lack of rack, i've developed an obsession for breasts that matches that of any teenage boy. if a woman's got some cleavage exposed, you can bet my eyes are going to be glued to it (unless they're matronly or fake. i cannot stand fake boobs). it's all breast envy, really.
i can't complain. it's nice to be looked in the eye and liked for my charming personality and awkward, yet endearing, smile. i can go running without feeling any unnecessary pain, sleep on my stomach, and go braless whenever i feel like it (that's what really wins this sweaty time of year). i get a fair amount of male attention, and i'm sure i get less unwanted attention than some of my stacked sisters.
but you know, i'd really like to go shopping for cute bras or even sexy lingerie for once in my life. i just buy the same old plain maidenform padded bra i've used since middle school because 1) it fits and 2) it adds just enough padding to make me look proportioned. can you imagine me trying to seduce someone in a lacy bra with inches of loose cup space? takes sexy to a whole new uncomfortable level. i'd really just like to fill my clothes better, hold up a tube dress, have a more feminine silhouette, or even have cleavage without just folding skin together. come on, body. i'm still waiting to blossom. just hit me with a surprise ninja attack growth spurt, yeah? i'm not asking for much; some healthy B's would do.
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| the scariest thing i have ever done... |
[Monday
August 31st, 2009 at 2:00pm] |
note: my brother is not calling me "greasy." it's crissy, pronounced with a filipino accent -- something that stuck when we learned how to say our nicknames from our parents.
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| golden |
[Sunday
August 30th, 2009 at 12:04am] |
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[Thursday
August 27th, 2009 at 7:45pm] |
gabe: guys would think you're hot if you stopped dressing like an old lady.
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[Sunday
August 23rd, 2009 at 6:53pm] |
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i played an intense game of shuffleboard last night.
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| you want to eat this |
[Thursday
July 16th, 2009 at 1:11pm] |
as many of you might know, i love cooking, and most importantly, i love eating. after a dormant period of being too lazy to cook, too lazy to clean up, and maybe, just maybe, too lazy to even eat (WHAT?!), i finally cooked myself a real meal yesterday -- pineapple fried rice.
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| adventures in los feliz pt. 1 |
[Wednesday
July 15th, 2009 at 8:49pm] |
this, a ceiling fan, and a few open windows have been my only relief in this los angeles summer heat. i was told i was going to get a free, lightly used ac window unit from a friend of a friend, but i haven't heard back about it since it was mentioned to me last week. but i don't know, i think my goal for july will be to keep my power bill under $15. besides, i've been managing pretty well in 90ish degree weather thanks to nakedness.
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